is the grass greener...

Is the grass really greener on the other side? 

Within the last year I experienced a series of transformations; all of which have influenced, in their own unique way, the decisions that I have made.  You could say that I am blossoming.  I am getting to know myself in a newer light and that is always changing.  As we get older, this happens.  You first learn how to have a boyfriend and before you know it, you have to learn how to have a husband (I'm still trying to get the boyfriend part down)!  

We all change as we get older and acceptance of those changes can be referred to as maturity.  But my question to you is this...Do you have to adopt the changes that you see around you because it appears to be expected of you?

Okay...you know what, I'm not letting you off that easy...I'll answer that one:  No, you don't!  My recent adult life does not fit into anyone's box of expectation, even my own.  The things that I have done and seen are those that I wouldn't have dreamt for myself nor did I plan all of it.  That's travel!  

Last night I ran into an old aquaintance and he was just as surprised to run into me as I him.  He had heard that I had been living overseas and was thus confused as to why I was at a home town basketball game.  I filled him in on where I was last and where I was going for the next year and finally where after that!  "That's the kind of stuff you hear about on tv!  Wow!", he said.  "Well yea, I guess that's my life these days!", was my only response to him.  And I guess it's true. 

I've had so many moments of jealousy and envy the past few months.  I envy my friend's beautiful homes, husbands, and harmony in their life.  They seem to have things figured out.  They have someone to inquire about their day and somewhere to fill with their memories.  They seem mature and I feel like a kid next to them at times!

So I think that the grass just always seems greener on the other side.  I think their life sounds nice at times but truth is, they are envious of mine.  I want a house and they want my duffel bag.  Deep down, as much as stability and social maturity stares me in the face and taunts me with her smirk, I know that my life is the kind that you hear about on tv.  And that makes me smile as I pack up my suitcase because I get to travel the world looking for the greenest grass I can find! 

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